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Tuesday, March 31, 2015

So many changes...

A lot has gone on since I was last here. I do apologize, but I won't make any more promises to be here every day. I will say I will try, that's the closest to a promise I can give.

So after years of waiting, I finally got subsidized housing. Yep. I moved in almost 2 months ago, in the middle of a snow storm. I still can't believe the hoops they make you jump thru. I even had to PROVE I didn't own a house (bf and I bought one in 2007, but I signed off of it before I left).

It's a much nicer apartment than I was in. Only problem is it's only 500 sq ft, my other was almost 650. Yeah, have had to do some creative organizing, lol.

The neighborhood is nice enough. Already met the neighbors. There's a garbage dumpster close enough that I can get to it with my cane. I'm on the bottom floor, so no stairs. And a huge bonus is I now have a washer/dryer IN the apartment. Yeah, they're used (think I'm the 4th owner) and the dryer doesn't work, but it's a lot easier. Oh, and I now have a dishwasher and garbage disposal, didn't have those before.

My kitchen is bigger, so I can enjoy cooking more. And the bathroom is HUGE compared to the last one.

I'm happy here. I can do as I please, without my dad visiting and trying to make things his way("IF I was you, I'd do......."). I love him, he means well, but he can be a bit pushy at times, lol.

Maybe I'll take some pics and post.


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Saturday, November 22, 2014

Trying out freezer cooking

Been looking for shortcuts and recipes online. I'm armed with a crock pot and a half-empty freezer.

I've had a lot of success with my crock pot. Though I learned pretty quickly, that I had to scale the recipes back a bit. I made meatloaf in it one day, and ended up eating meatloaf for four days. Note to self: you live alone, you only need a few servings.

Then I realized that I could start freezing some of the leftovers. Then I thought why not try putting meals together and freeze them, so all I had to do was throw them in the crockpot. It hasn't been a total disaster. I just forgot somewhere along the line, that I only have one of those tiny little icebox freezers. Making a months worth of meals, just won't fit in the freezer.

I got as far as some breakfast burritos, vegetable soup, and packets for green smoothies. That's when the freezer real estate ran out. Poor planning on my part. My intentions were good though. I was already prep and freeze a months worth of meals. That way I would have home cooking even on the days when I couldn't stand on my feet.

Oh well. This coming month I'll just have to plan a little bit better. Feel free to suggest any freezable recipes, I'm always looking. Especially for those that are simple, semi-vegetarian (I only eat red meat 1-2 times a month, but still eat chicken, seafood and dairy). I also can't have anything fried.

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Friday, November 21, 2014

Frustration

 Probably shouldn't talk about this here, but oh well.

I’m so frustrated with my little sister at this point, I have to avoid her. I just can’t be around her. I’m afraid I’ll try to knock some sense into her. You can’t help someone who is just so determined to make every mistake possible, did I forget to add the she’s letting her ex back around?

Yeah the guy that still has charges pending against him for beating her up. This is been going on for five months now. She avoids making decisions in her life, she's been caught lying to me, and lying to my dad. She doesn't manage her money, so she makes up lies to tell my dad, so he'll pay her rent. Last year alone, my dad paid eight out of 12 months of her rent. She's been caught lying about letting the EX live with her again also.

So then she decided to hook up with another guy, just because she needed someone to babysit her kids and pay some on the bills. A month after the guy moved in, she started bugging him, wanting to get pregnant. He said no. Rumor has it she's now pregnant anyway. Even though guy number two is now out of the picture also, he got sick of staying at his parents house every weekend just so she could have her other ex over. Yeah, you read that correctly.

And all this, after getting $3000 from my dad to pay for a lawyer. Because she and the first ex, decided to take each other to court over the child they share.

It really bothers me, because this is how my mother started acting, when her mental illness started setting in. And if that's the road my sister is headed down, this is just the beginning.

We've been encouraging her to get therapy. She finally started, but refuses to be open and honest with the therapist. I know from experience, that means the therapy will never help.

I'm at my wits end the situation. It's kept me so upset and stressed out, that my doctors have all gotten on me to distance myself from it. I hate to do it, but I have to. I have to try to keep myself from getting entangled in her mess.

I just don't know what to think, it's just exhausting.
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Thursday, November 20, 2014

Let's play catch up...

So I’ve been kind of busy, lots of personal stuff going on to side track me.
The guy I use to get rides from, who was dating my sister, is now history. My family never knew that he had been beating on her. He had even been convicted of domestic battery and 2 years ago. Yeah. Sister never mentioned that one.

So he went to blows with her one morning and they split up. She got a no contact order against him. Well, there was a lot more drama than just that, but it’s stuff I’ll keep off the internet.
I'm now back to missing doctors appointments because of a lack of transportation. Public transportation in my area is just nonexistent.

Medicaid will pay for a few trips, but I'm running into a problem with that. I'm in one county, and all of my doctors are in another. There is no transportation that will go between the two counties. I can get a ride to anywhere just as long as it's in my county. Doesn't really help me get to doctors appointments.

And before, they were taking me to the grocery store 3 to 4 times a month. That's now over. My middle sister who lives a few cities away, now comes out once a month to take me. So I am slowly coming up with creative ways to cook and get the things I need. For example, I'm now using dried milk, since the jug stuff goes bad so fast. Now I just mix up what I need.

If I were to touch on everything that's going on, this post would be about 200 pages long. So in the interest of keeping things short, I'll just leave the rest for later.

I'm trying to refocus my life right now. I've spent way too much time wrapped up in the lives of my sisters. I've forgotten that I need to have life to and the only one who can make a life for me, is me.

And that means, spending more time focusing on my blogs, my online store, and myself.

Talk again soon (I'm using talk to type to write this, kind of feel like I'm talking out loud to myself,lol).

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