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Friday, November 21, 2014

Frustration

 Probably shouldn't talk about this here, but oh well.

I’m so frustrated with my little sister at this point, I have to avoid her. I just can’t be around her. I’m afraid I’ll try to knock some sense into her. You can’t help someone who is just so determined to make every mistake possible, did I forget to add the she’s letting her ex back around?

Yeah the guy that still has charges pending against him for beating her up. This is been going on for five months now. She avoids making decisions in her life, she's been caught lying to me, and lying to my dad. She doesn't manage her money, so she makes up lies to tell my dad, so he'll pay her rent. Last year alone, my dad paid eight out of 12 months of her rent. She's been caught lying about letting the EX live with her again also.

So then she decided to hook up with another guy, just because she needed someone to babysit her kids and pay some on the bills. A month after the guy moved in, she started bugging him, wanting to get pregnant. He said no. Rumor has it she's now pregnant anyway. Even though guy number two is now out of the picture also, he got sick of staying at his parents house every weekend just so she could have her other ex over. Yeah, you read that correctly.

And all this, after getting $3000 from my dad to pay for a lawyer. Because she and the first ex, decided to take each other to court over the child they share.

It really bothers me, because this is how my mother started acting, when her mental illness started setting in. And if that's the road my sister is headed down, this is just the beginning.

We've been encouraging her to get therapy. She finally started, but refuses to be open and honest with the therapist. I know from experience, that means the therapy will never help.

I'm at my wits end the situation. It's kept me so upset and stressed out, that my doctors have all gotten on me to distance myself from it. I hate to do it, but I have to. I have to try to keep myself from getting entangled in her mess.

I just don't know what to think, it's just exhausting.
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Thursday, November 20, 2014

Let's play catch up...

So I’ve been kind of busy, lots of personal stuff going on to side track me.
The guy I use to get rides from, who was dating my sister, is now history. My family never knew that he had been beating on her. He had even been convicted of domestic battery and 2 years ago. Yeah. Sister never mentioned that one.

So he went to blows with her one morning and they split up. She got a no contact order against him. Well, there was a lot more drama than just that, but it’s stuff I’ll keep off the internet.
I'm now back to missing doctors appointments because of a lack of transportation. Public transportation in my area is just nonexistent.

Medicaid will pay for a few trips, but I'm running into a problem with that. I'm in one county, and all of my doctors are in another. There is no transportation that will go between the two counties. I can get a ride to anywhere just as long as it's in my county. Doesn't really help me get to doctors appointments.

And before, they were taking me to the grocery store 3 to 4 times a month. That's now over. My middle sister who lives a few cities away, now comes out once a month to take me. So I am slowly coming up with creative ways to cook and get the things I need. For example, I'm now using dried milk, since the jug stuff goes bad so fast. Now I just mix up what I need.

If I were to touch on everything that's going on, this post would be about 200 pages long. So in the interest of keeping things short, I'll just leave the rest for later.

I'm trying to refocus my life right now. I've spent way too much time wrapped up in the lives of my sisters. I've forgotten that I need to have life to and the only one who can make a life for me, is me.

And that means, spending more time focusing on my blogs, my online store, and myself.

Talk again soon (I'm using talk to type to write this, kind of feel like I'm talking out loud to myself,lol).

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Thursday, February 6, 2014

Getting my teeth fixed

Had my second visit with the doctor today. He filled one tooth and took a look at the rest.

I'm going to need a partial for the bottom. the top is a different story. The teeth up there are in rough shape, but he doesn't want to pull the if he doesn't have to. So, we're going to see if we can find a lab willing to donate the crowns, he's really hoping. The dentist really doesn't want to pull living teeth that are still viable.

If a lab can't be found, then the teeth will have to be pulled and I'll have to get a top partial.

I never thought I'd stand a chance of getting my teeth fixed, but I found someone willing to help. I thought for sure I'd have to have all my teeth pulled and get dentures, but it turns out that's not the case. Think 3 miracles in a row could happen? Here's praying.









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Sunday, January 26, 2014

Indiana Donated Dental

This program may be the greatest thing I’ve discovered in years. It’s a program where dentists donate their services to help people like me who have dental problems and no way to take care of them.

I really don’t like talking about it because it’s both horrifying & embarrassing.
I haven’t had any dental care in 21 years. I’ve never had a job that offered it & have never been able to afford it out of pocket.

About 2000, I developed a cavity on my front tooth. People use to tell me I had something stuck to my tooth, forcing me to have to tell them it was a cavity.
Everything went to hell in a hand basket the last 5 years. I’ve last 4 teeth and there isn’t a tooth in my mouth that isn’t effected by decay. Where one of my Wisdom teeth was, is now a hole up into my jaw.

I stopped brushing around 3 years ago. My teeth would disintegrate while I was brushing, it just became too depressing. Nothing like a mouthful of grit from your teeth first thing in the morning. I thought I was doomed & if I found care, dentures it would be.
I started emailing my senators & other state representatives. One of them put me in touch with the donated dental program, something that I have never even heard of. So I applied an here we are.

Saw the dentist last week. Got X-rays done, a cleaning, and had a long discussion on what to do next. Turns out my teeth aren’t quite as bad as I had thought. It looks like I’ll only be loosing 10 teeth, meaning a partial denture, for the top. Then all of the rest of the teeth will have to have  work done, that’s fillings for all.
So, its both good bad. Next week the dentist and her partner will call me with a final game plan. She thinks it’ll go like this: another cleaning & extractions (they’ll also do an impression), while my mouth is healing they’ll have the partial made, then partial. Saying it, it sounds fast, but nothing is always as it seems.

Wish me luck. Btw, I thought about posting a pic of my teeth, but I didn’t want to gross everybody out. Maybe I’ll post before & after pics after the work is done. If you’re really curious, have a strong stomach, and are just curious, contact me and I’ll share a pic privately (I’ll send a link).
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